During the daytime on weekdays, especially when I was staring out the window in a car with few people, I couldn't tell if I was moving or the city was moving.I know it shouldn't be, but I couldn't keep up with the changing world without being so busy.
The world around me is moving forward, but I'm still stepping on here.It's like just staring at the world that is moving away and my body that belongs to it, while staying at my feet all the time.


I couldn't remember the brand of cigarettes, and I couldn't smoke when I lit it, so I bought the smallest canned beer at a convenience store.Really, it's a size that only comes into play at such times.
Even so, I'm not a grandmother at all, I'm wondering if I'm going to visit the grave suddenly.However, I could only think of a way to separate my heart from the world.

I sprinkled water with my red-skinned hands, and while rubbing it with a sponge, I realized that I would buy flowers at such times, but it didn't matter anymore and I opened the beer moderately.
And after finishing all the confession though it is neither a temple nor a shrine, since there was no one, I played music on my smartphone so that I could listen to the album that I had just released secretly.
After all, it's great no matter how many times I listen to it, you see, because I made such a good album, I think it's okay to move forward a little.I did my best even with this.

While sipping on the beer I had just served, I talked about the band, my family, and my friends returning home.At times like this, it's pretty comfortable to be able to talk about things that might change if you say something.Even if I know that it's just a little beer and I'm drunk with extraordinary things, I know it, so I want you to forgive me only at such times.
After that, for a while, contrary to the body that was just standing up, I hurriedly traced the memory of happiness in my head.


Just when I couldn't return from my memory journey, from the speaker
"Are the people you followed a long time ago still alive in your heart?"
Was heard, and I was surprised.
It grabbed my shoulders and made a pleasingly clear distinction between "old" and "now" to regain the blurred contours of my body.
Well, I realized that the songs that left our hands and became independent supported themselves so quickly, and I was so happy that everything I had been thinking about was melancholy.Rather than being happy, it was more like an intricate combination of expectations and peace of mind.
Looking at the name carved on the side, I got a really strange name, a little unscrupulous word that made me feel sick.


Perhaps the train on the way home is a rush to go home, but it's quite full, even though it's such a time.However, thanks to that, I was able to glimpse the lights of the city passing in front of me without indulging in the fantasy of going.Perhaps the train window was special, the greenish sky was so beautiful as it approached the night, and the only idiom was "I wish everyone could be happy" with the constantly flowing lights on the side.
SNS also reported that one friend had returned to his hometown, which meant that another window light had gone out of the city.

Get off the train and walk the usual way.
Yellow, yellow, yellow, white, yellow, white.
I wish I had the same color as the streetlight.


Sea (updated 2022.02.09)