Thanks to the flood of music that suits winter nights in this world, I got off at the station just before me even though it was so cold.

When I climbed my favorite pedestrian bridge, the tail lamps of cars running on the slope lined up vertically toward the moon.
Looking at the light that stretches straight like a stable ladder, I think that if I were Kaguyahime, today might have been the day to return to the moon.I'm not such a big person, so I just go back to the pitch-black 1K where the goldfish are waiting.

The light to the moon moves constantly, so the moment I realized that it was an escalator, not a ladder, the ladder to the moon returned to just a tail lamp.I'm sure the escalator was too real for me.


By the time I got home, my body was so cold that I couldn't even insert the key into the keyway, so I decided to store hot water in the bathtub for the first time in a while.
The cold body sank vigorously in plenty of hot water, and as soon as it hit the floor of the bathtub, I noticed that it was heavy and hard enough to make a dull sound.However, after a while, the body warmed up to the core and the muscles were loosened, and the body emerged.
I was a little sad that my body would be no different from sausages.


Water is very strange, and the moment you touch it, you can clearly feel the boundary with yourself, but before you know it, it becomes ambiguous and you feel as if you were in the water all the time.
Maybe it's because the heat of each other slowly walks up, or maybe because my name is "sea ,,".

Every time I was adolescent and reconsidered my existence, I was always wondering why my mother gave me such a big and rough name.I wanted a smaller and cute name.Any flower would be fine, and any star would be fine as long as it glitters small with the naked eye.
But I was the wide and deep water that connects the land and the land, and the water that is the home of many creatures.I thought it wasn't just a matter of having a broad heart and deep love.
When I noticed that, I had grown to the point where I could be proud of my name.I'm sure it was because I was able to find more value than when my mother named it.
It's not as small and pretty as a flower, but it may be my role to connect the living creatures that keep an exquisite balance in me and sometimes gently wrap them like amniotic fluid.


While thinking about that, the hot water became lukewarm and I tried to take away even the body temperature that had just risen.When I unplugged the bathtub and let the slimy water escape little by little, the surface of my body broke the surface of the water at exactly the same speed.The body that gets heavier and heavier gradually increases the area that comes into contact with the air while squeezing the inside tightly.
Oh yeah, I thought I was desperately moving such a heavy thing every day.
I've been holding such a heavy thing, and I wonder if I'll continue to carry it.

I was a little worried that I might be despaired to know this fact, thinking of her taking a bath every morning.



Sea (updated 2021.12.06)